(refinement week)

This week, I officially broke into the crying-tears-of-appreciation stage. Normally, it takes me a bit longer to get into this zone, but I’ve been doing some pretty intense meditations over the past couple days which have really cracked things open.

Week 2 of APEX is notorious for being the most boring. It’s when slip ups are most likely to occur, and you’ve settled into a nice routine, but you’re facing new levels of boredom that can be extremely uncomfortable at first. Boredom is tricky… it’s the emotional temptress that seduces you into numbness. It can either derail you completely, or open up major opportunities for deeper listening, inspired action, and alignment.

The other thing to note about week 2 is it’s a “3D lag” week, meaning, most people are not in full harvest mode even if they’re seeing energetic movement. It can be easy to screw around during this time and forget that each and every move you make is going to have an impact on the weeks, months, and years to come.

I decided to call this time “refinement week” because that’s exactly what it is. You’re much more conscious and on point than the week prior, but can see all the places where you can take yourself even further. I find that your level of commitment and refinement during this stage really sets the tone for what unfolds later.

Personally, this time has been ripe with breakthroughs, and as a result, my creative inspiration is flowing like crazy.

APEX is known to drastically shift people’s perception and experience of time, but this week has really put some things into perspective - specifically my relationship with TikTok (ironic much?) Every time I go into this protocol it forces me to put attention on how intentional I am being with my time and how much impact I am baking into every moment. I’m sure I’ll have more to write about this soon…

I’ve decided to release the idea of creating on or consuming TikTok even after this round of APEX is complete. My experience is that it’s very difficult to control your focus (and therefore your vibration) when you’re on TikTok - much more than on other social media platforms.

It’s a time thief.
A black hole.
The place where time goes to die.

If I am not utilizing time energetically in the moment, then that time does not have the opportunity to serve me later. The past two weeks have really illustrated how important the utilization of my time is, because it’s always adding up.

COOL SHIT THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK:

• My Slut Magic pre-launch has been going way better than expected!

• Tried a new recipe.

• I recorded a great podcast episode (well, at least I think it was fantastic hehe) it’s the MOMENTUM episode of Sunday Messages ep: 257.

• I haven’t had a headache in 11 days! (In case you don’t know, I get headaches often - 11 days without one is a HUGE win. It feels like a personal record lol.)

• Did some significant recalibration around layers of insecurity I’ve been numbing (I’m feeling significantly more stable and confident).

• I’ve been “in the lab” for Slut Magic, as I desire to continue adding to that program.

• Client successes are already rolling in (improved relationships, new opportunities, new career paths, deep emotional repairs, ya know… all the usual APEX stuff). These celebrations started happening just 9 days in!

• Launched a free, monthly workshop called “notes from future self” and I’m so excited about it! (If you want in on this, make sure you’re subscribed to my newsletter here).

• Came to the conclusion that I no longer want to consume TikTok even when I’m finished with this fast… the platform itself is quite brutal on my nervous system and ability to focus. I do not miss it, and I don’t want to pressure myself to create short form content when it’s really not my passion, clearly. Apparently I’m a blogger girlie now? Lol.

• I’ve been having BOMB ASS meditations! God, I’ve fallen back in love with my practice. I can’t get enough. Right now I’m doing 30-40 minutes about 3 times per day.

• I had some personal relationship wins that would take too much explaining for them to make sense in one bullet point. Let’s just say, things are very, very good.

Holy smokes! It’s wild to see how much happens in a week when it’s all listed out like this.

Alrighty! I will talk to you next week to chat all about week 3!