(SIDE NOTE: when I say God, I’m talking about the infinite, loving stream of consciousness that animates us all. Whether you call it The Divine, Source, love, or whatever else doesn’t matter to me - I just happen to like the personified feeling of the word “God” it feels more like an intimate relationship.)
Okay… now let’s get into the story!
A year and a half ago, I had an encounter with God that radically shifted my faith.
I was driving home from San Diego when I started to tell God “you know… I’m worried that I’m being teased with my desires, like they’re nothing more than a carrot dangling in front of me. I’ve been waiting so long and I’ve done so much work on myself to prepare, I don’t understand why this isn’t happening for me.”
When an overwhelming, thundering (internal) voice responded with “do you trust me?”
The presence was so intense, I started to cry.
Then, I said “yes, I’m just scared of disappointment.”
As I turned a corner, the road opened up and I was surrounded by a breathtaking landscape, right at golden hour. (Naturally I was in full blown hysterics at this point).
Before that moment, for awhile, I was wondering if my desires were “wrong” or if my aim was off. I said many times before, “if this wasn’t right, for it to be removed from my experience.”
The day after my encounter in the car, God delivered my desire.🕊️
It still shocks me how many of these experiences I’ve had, and I still feel doubt, fear, and worry… but the one thing that has remained consistent: when I reach for God, talk to God, feel for God, magic always happens.
Whenever I am doubting or fearing, I am reminded of that moment in the car. I remember that the more I connect to God, the faster things move.
Even though I forget sometimes, I am reminded over and over that all the good shit comes from harmonizing with God.
Of course this is what we’re focusing on in my new membership, your unique, personal relationship with God…
Church is open until 12/20!