THE STORY OF HOW BODY MODIFICATION BECAME SO IMPORTANT TO ME…
2017
In 2017 I went through some really stressful events and rapidly lost a bunch of weight that I didn’t have to lose. Most of it was muscle mass and some curves that I enjoyed having!
Before this photo, I was already in great shape. I worked out 5 days per week at minimum and took great care of my body.
It felt like everything I built was lost practically overnight…
2020
For the next few years, I continued to lose weight, mostly because I wasn’t prioritizing my physique at all, and my “dream body” was the farthest thing from my mind.
If you look at this photo and think I look good, you’ve been seriously misguided by your boomer mother and the early 2000s. I hardly have any muscle at all and this is terrible for bone and hormonal health! (Honestly this photo is kind of hard for me to look at.)
Malnourishment is not the vibe.
Vitality, radiance, beauty, and high energy are the vibe!
2021
One day in the Fall of 2021, I was sitting quietly when a thought surfaced:
“I want my body back.”
Not my physique from years past, but to experience the highest potential of my body. My next thought was “I don’t just want my body back, I want it to be better than ever.”
As I contemplated this, it occurred to me that plenty of people have experienced energetic healings and spontaneous remissions when a lightbulb went off.
💡 I can do the same thing with aesthetics!
In that moment I decided: “I’m going to have huge boobs.”
And I was going to do it with energetics alone. Judge me all you want, it’s what I deeply wanted!
2022
This photo was taken in January of 2022, a few months after that contemplation. I was still in the very early stages of developing my body modification methods.
One thing was for sure: it was a fucking blast!
I was finally able to get back to my normal healthy weight so I didn’t look like Skeletor anymore. Then my weight plateaued, all my clothes fit like normal, and I was in a good flow. Food felt fun and easy and exercise was natural.
One thing however, did not plateau…
May of 2022 was a tipping point.
I posted this photo and started receiving DMs from people asking if I had… surgery.
Listen, when this first happened I was skeptical too!!! I wanted to be 100% sure that this was truly energetics and not just some weight gain or some other confound variable.
So let’s clear some things up.
How do I know this wasn’t just weight gain?
All of my clothes fit. ✔️
My band size stayed the same, but the cup size went up. ✔️
I was overweight in the past but was never this size! ✔️
Was I on birth control or a new medication that would cause this?
Nope! Never touched the stuff!
Did I have surgery?
No, I’m allergic to silicone and fat transfers don’t look good (IMO).
I still wasn’t satisfied with this evidence and wanted to eliminate all doubt!
So I asked a long term partner to be brutally honest with me. He had seen my body overweight, underweight, and everything in between.
I asked him if this was real or if I had just gained weight. I told him not to spare my feelings (even though he wouldn’t have anyway, he’s not a complimentary guy and has mercury in Virgo).
The first words out of his mouth were “Sydney, I would have remembered this. How is this possible?!”
After ruling out all other possibilities, this finally felt like truly sufficient proof of concept.
Another major milestone was hit in October of 2022 (and yes, the band size stayed the same, so did my clothes.)
What I’m wearing in this photo is from Skims, and it no longer fits.
I didn’t just outgrow one piece, I outgrew the entire product line…
**these are my current measurements by the way
Full transparency, progress photos became a bit difficult to share online after a certain point… and I’m always mindful of how I share this story.
In 2023 I hit ANOTHER milestone in April that was my goal for the entire year.
I realized I had so much momentum behind my expectation, the progress just kept compounding effortlessly.
In 2024, I went through some really difficult things that were rough on my body. Naturally, this created a whole new set of aesthetic goals and desires for my wellbeing in general.
As I always say, the goal posts always move and that’s part of the game! There’s no point getting attached or upset when the process of evolution is inevitable.
Through all of this I’ve realized one of the biggest gifts I bring is the ability to hold both a kind and loving perspective toward myself now, and my desires at the same time!
Believe it or not, you don’t need to be an asshole to get your dream body 🙃
Of course we all know how much I love teaching body modification, and I do have a full blown program you can dive into right away. 🥳
Or if you want just a taste, I have a body modification masterclass happening next week!
The masterclass will not be available for purchase after the doors close.
And also, both of these come with a free month in the group chat if you buy during the month of October 2025!